Engineering.
What happens in dreams when we fly..? Never been a science tonight… Starring through a window in time… For someone to show what I’m like…
So… ummm… Right from our childhood, everything might not be the same for all of us, not everyone has got the same kinda storyline. One, neither has the same kind of (kind of) education nor the ideology along with the thinking process as you and I do… But, if you could see all the back through your life for the past 3~4 years (if you are a 18~19 yr old person; but if you are in your 20’s, you definitely know a lot…more than I do!), there will be a deeper insights of the struggle and the hard work from both, you and your parents as well… They have joined in one one of the best colleges at our nearby cities; paid a hell lot of fee, especially their efforts that they had put in allowing us to study in such high demanding educational system… They have really tried damn hard to give their best and trust me, they gave their best of best! And… so as…we do! We, have prepared so hard to give our best to attempt two of the India’s most challenging exams of all time, JEE MAIN & JEE ADVANCE (excuse me, who have prepared for their NEET and UPSE Examinations). So, yeah, we prepared so well to perform our best at these exam sessions… Not everyone of us could have given our best… at least, we could give or better(myself included!).
So… ummm… with all our struggles, hard work, stress, preparation, and all; here we are, looking at the mirror, starring at our reflections, questioning ourselves, “Is this…what it is all about?”, getting started with our respective Engineering lives, which is very new to all of us. I mean, all of us!
Here begins the main part of the story!
Everyone of us has their own expectations, beliefs, assumptions, thoughts, some kinda ideologies on how, their engineering life could be… I mean, everyone has different-different opinions on his/her own life, right? And, what if… if you have to be forced, to take the bus which is not going to the destination that you are supposed to be? What if…it’s not the life that you are not expecting from the most important part of your career? Which is happening to myself forthwith (right now). I can’t resist myself here, to share some insights of my own story!!!
Being a student, how couldn’t I expect a well balanced life and that too, from the most important part of my entire career! Engineering Life could be is the most salient, crucial, essential, decisive, (Okay google, synonyms for important, lol…) part of one’s life. So, his/her have their own expectations, which is a quite normal thing. So do I! But, things are completely different here(at my college). Lemme just tell you HOW.
So, this day (my first ever day going to the college actually), when I first entered the classroom, the entire class was filled with the students and there’s only one bench left to sit on, and which is the very first bench, in front of the board! Why am I putting this particular scene here? In view of the fact that, from the past couple of years… I have been a backbencher! Trust me, I may not did as such things where a typical backbencher do. But, sitting at the last few benches of my class with my gang (I miss you guys!!!) and now, for the reason that we were separated and all… I hadda(had to) sit on the very first bench in front of the lecturer who has started teaching about the basics of C programming immediately after the moment I sat on the bench… I was….just… flat(inexpressive). So, the class was done… the next lecturers were going on… and there was this particular subject lecturer, I dunno the lecturer name, so, excuse me… So, she has started sharing the glimpses of the college… Believe me, this was the most ambitious part! Starting with the college timings, all through the labs, assignments, especially the internal marks they give based on very minute things which may not make sense… such as wearing the uniform, combing the hair, cutting the nails, having a clean shave one particular lab which is once a week, wearing shoes with matching socks, also when it comes to the attendance, damnnnn, we have this kinda periodically attendance… I mean, the lecturer’s gonna take the attendance in his each period at the end of his/her class! So, basically a lot of frustrating things that are going to be happen! Also, each day, the particular mentor who’s allotted to you, will be coming to you and he’s going to take all the feedbacks, drawbacks, gonna ask why you didn’t write the notes, and all…I mean, it’s kinda similar to the present days-school culture; every single thing…is going to be calculated in which you’ll getting your respective internal marks from the college and there’s a lot more to say… but, at a glance, this is it!
So, each of us have been allotted our respective colleges/universities, in which we are gonna(going to) spend the next 4~5 years of our lives. And, directly, I just wanna share my thoughts on how I felt the last few days of my early stage in my engineering life. Unusually, for the reason that I know no one in the campus and have one to talk with(particularly the past few days), I felt very uncomfortable, I felt very unhappy, it’s like… as I mentioned earlier, it’s not the similar thing which I was expecting from my life! I was expecting a better life, a better experience..! All alone sitting for for a long period of time and overthinking about what may happen further… all alone pretending that I was sleeping with my eyes open, starring to the ceiling of the room… I just… losing the control over myself!
At such situations, when you just, take that one step back from your over thinking; when you just gain that lil consciousness that you are being losing control over yourself… when you can just think of it… that…
"We are the main characters of our own movies and if we don't go through shit, problems and tough choices in life, we can't grow into the strong hero at the end of the movie we quite often see. Learn to respect challenges and embrace the difficult times for it's the secret ingredient to building our beloved character."
~ BENN TK
Knowing yourself and getting used to you, is a definitely worth a change from the ‘past you’. Thereupon, I have made some decisions to make a better me..!
Even though, many of us are going through our respective setbacks, hardships, misfortunes, whatever it could be..! Just take a deep breath for a moment and remind yourself that…
God just has a bigger plan for it, than we ever did!
So, make a to-do list, starting watching the youtube tutorials on “How to code?”, start a dairy entry if you want to know much deeper about yourself (I mean…if you want to..!), start sharing this newsletter (lol, am just kiddin’, but, you can do it if you feel that your friend is feeling the same), be kind to everyone, maintain a respectful body language, explore many different topics, gain as much knowledge as you can, make some realistic goals that you are going to do, stay apart from the crowd, and it’s completely okay to be different and it’s completely fine to be unique…and at last, be the person you are looking for!
Isn’t this all about an Unbalanced life..?
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